7 senses.

7 senses

Beauty is short-lived.

Class shallow.

Intellect deceiving.

Emotions unpredictable….

Passion lasts forever.

 

You give me passion without pain,

without the guilt,

with words.

The sixth sense.

Silence the seventh.

You touch my heart with your words,

my hand with your lips,

and make me yours with your eyes.

 

What about your eyes draws me in so, to the point that I shut mine?

What if I told you that it only took two arms and one night to say what my ears needed to hear?

Without touching me, you make me yours.

Continue speaking my inner language. Half spoken, half unspoken.

 

DNB

Hump Day

–I’m not sure why, but feeling super restless emotionally… working out, watching The Breakup, 2 dinners, and an hour of cleaning have not really settled it either. I’m guessing this is hormonal? In which case hopefully tomorrow will be better.

 

The Daughtry station on PANDORA will have to do for the interim time…

 

“Let Me Go”
-3 Doors Down

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you’re not something I deserve

In my head there’s only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there’s real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don’t know who I am
I’m torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don’t know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I’m goin through

In my head there’s only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there’s real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don’t know who I am
I’m torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don’t know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me go…
Let me go

DNB

Me in May

On a light private practice surgery rotation this month my only objectives are 2: operate till my intrinsic hand muscles get buff and live/love my life. Here are some simple ways I intend on doing just that:

1. Be aggressive, MAYbe aggressive: get into the OR at all costs. As it turns out, attendings in private practice love working with residents from academic institutions most of the time. They tend to be excellent teachers as well which makes for a very pleasant operative experience, if you ask me. The perfect soil for a young intern.

2. Read the following:

   

   Corner Office: 5 habits of Highly Effective CEOs. All future leaders’ guide to leadership in 21st century America

   

   The ICU Book by Marino. Less pleasurable, but equally necessary. Part of a master preparation for 2nd year.

   

   Get my workout on. Two things that turn this Georgia girl on are fitness and…..

   

   ….Fooooooood!! Which brings me to another goal….

3. Self control please! Stress of residency has led me to lose all self control with respects to food…. as well as other things. Trying to stay out of trouble this month 🙂
   

4. Paint a little bit. Art takes the edge from life for some reason. The best part is it really doesn’t matter if I’m good at it

5. Friends are priceless. Period. Make them count.

Oh, and I decided that I am happily an introvert. I used to be extroverted but have grown to spend so much time in my head recently that I truthfully have been lying to myself calling myself an extrovert.

More later as usual.

DNB

Solid Dresses by Julian Chang at eDressMe

Solid Dresses by Julian Chang at eDressMe.

the NOmad

I’m in the habit of making to-d0-lists that I know won’t get done.

I place myself in uncomfortable situations often,

         and chase rainbows blindly off cliffs.

I repeat myself constantly…

Like a robot, only expecting different results each time.

The definition of insanity.

 

My life is not and never has been my own.

As if I’m the last picked player on the corner of a boardgame

          with no control over my piece.

 

No Peace.

 

I’m restless as is my spirit constantly.

My thoughts fleeting.

My emotions fluctulent.

I struggle and want stability, satisfaction, joy, contentment.

None of which I’ve known for some time now.

 

So I bob for Good Apples and retrieve these Nectarines daily ….

…..none of which surprisingly I have an appetite for any longer.

Perhaps it’s time I re-route yet again.

                                                            -NNB

Walking backwards

Forgotten Language

Once I spoke the language of the flowers,
Once I understood each word the caterpillar said,
Once I smiled in secret at the gossip of the starlings,
And shared a conversation with the housefly
in my bed.
Once I heard and answered all the questions
of the crickets,
And joined the crying of each falling dying
flake of snow,
Once I spoke the language of the flowers… .
How did it go?
How did it go?

                                            -by Shel Silverstein

From the land of bad apples,

NNB

March 23, 2011

Athletic bashful colorful Christian dynamic extroverted feminine girl-next-door hard-working introspective jokster kinky loving mature nerdy optimistic persevorator quick romantic slender talkative unassuming virtuous warm XYZ

NNB

:-)

:-)

NNB

Rest in life, in death.

As doctors and student doctors, we deal with death and bad prognoses everyday. Honestly most of the time, it’s almost easier to comfort the patient, then temporarily frantically throw the whole situation over your shoulder emotionally hoping you’ll forget about it within the next hour as you run around trying to help take care of the other 15 patients on the service…. but after days like mine today, when you deliver and throw, deliver and bury, deliver and cover, and deliver and smother, you have to hit the pause button or risk running smack into a painful brick wall. After hearing and having to give bad news all day today my spirit is so restless now….. I also realized that one of my favorite contemporary Christian songs is actually a wonderful reminder of Christ’s promise of life after death to all who accept Him as Lord and Savior….. and as such, would make a great funeral song. In fact, I’d personally like for this song to be played at my funeral whenever my time on this earth is done. This is me hitting pause…. no, STOP. Today I make a play list for a funeral…. for those deceased patients who have allowed me to be a part of their life, story, and medical care, even if for a mere couple of minutes or hours. I am very grateful and I pray that they all rest in peace. For those that are alive walking down a dark lonely road, I pray the comfort of the Holy Spirit to embrace them during those last weeks/days in ways that no human being ever can. May their soul may find rest in the arms of God in life.

One, CHOO, Three, Four….

I’m currently in a one-roomed cottage on a cheap couch procrastinating like its my day-job. During an impromptu excursion to New York with a girlfriend last December, I was reminded why Jimmy Choo is probably my favorite high-end shoe line. It’s about that time of year….. sigh. How drool-worthy are these boots?!

Jimmy Choo, Fall 2010 Hexagon Metallic Boot: Price $1195; These metallic-washed khaki suede boots with uber-luxe fur lining featuring blanket stitch edging and gold studded buckle detail are perfect for the weekend.

Also on my wish list…. forget the hat. Yes to the coat.

French Connection "Erno" Wool Blend Military Jacket PRICE: $298.00

Michael Kors Fall 2010 Crossbody; I absolutely adore this bag and can't find it on their site. So I still have no idea what it's called or how much it costs. If you do, fill me in ASAP :-).

 

Urban Outfitters Sparkle & Fade Roll Cuff Boatneck Sweater Price: $48.00

Well now. That was oddly therapeutic …. for me at least ;-). And I never spent a dime.

NNB